Reset.

Just spent the past two hours on Skype with J, rummaging through the old letters we wrote each other. I re-read every single one of them, in chronological order, and I realized - I have snagged the most perfect being on earth.

We are almost a year in now, and he still has the ability to make me fall in love with him over and over again. Take just now for example: We were reading each others' letters quietly when I did my crazy thing of screaming his name out of the blue (I don't know why but I do that to everybody :/). All he did was look up, smile, respond gently with a "Yes?", and I could feel a million butterflies in my stomach. I don't know what to make of this. I feel so out of control, but not in a powerless and needy way. On the contrary, the helplessness empowers me. He empowers me.


// Babe, I know you are really struggling right now, having to juggle your torturously demanding classes, your shop in Singapore, our relationship, and being in a foreign country. You have big dreams, and being in London is already halfway there. Persevere. Fight. Shine. I have all the confidence in the world that you will be even better than what you'd envisioned yourself to be. Love you! (: