I don't care!!!

 

Omg, I feel so frustrated today!!!! People keep telling me like, "Hey, actually I don't read your blog" or "The last time I read your blog was (insert) weeks/months ago".

I really don't mean to be a bitch but,

DID I FUCKING ASK?!

 

Seriously! They start conversations with, "I don't read your blog anymore". Oh my gawd already. It was amusing at first, but after a few times, it really gets on my nerves. What is your point!? There are people who say it to bring me down, as if telling me, "Don't think your blog has alot of readers". But I don't understand why they do that! It's not like I declare, "EH, MY BLOG IS SIBEI POPULAR!!!". The worst of all is when they tell me crap like this and in actual fact, know stuff about me that is exclusive to this blog. Thank you for being a big fat faggotty loser.

WHY DO PEOPLE ASSUME THAT I ASSUME THEY READ MY BLOG?!

Yes, my blog had a raging 300 unique readership daily when I was over at my old blogspot. But that was 4 to 5 years ago!!! It was when I still cared about stuff like this and posted sneaked pictures of classmates in class and videos of birthday bash. I have grown up now and a blog is just...a blog. I don't hope to earn big bucks from it or have fans with undying love for me. I don't even care enough now to put a hit counter.

I don't blog to be heard, I blog because when I see alr, I feel damn shiok. It's therapeutic for me (I am just weird ok?!). And the formspring is just there if you want to share your thoughts with me. I am obviously very happy when people tell me they read my blog or when they leave a comment on my formspring. I appreciate it alot, not because it makes me feel popular, but because I feel cared for. Like when someone shares a useful website with me or answers my doubts. Superficial vs. Depth, HELLO?!

Being happy when people read doesn't mean I will be upset when people don't read it. I thought it was obvious that I don't care, because this time round, I have never publicized this blog. It's not on my old blogs, or facebook, or twitter, or youtube. I also don't go bloghopping telling people I have changed url. It is only on my msn where my friends are.

I am fierce, noisy, and unrelenting, but I have gotten so tired of defending myself yknow. So from now on, you can tell me if you read my blog. I will feel damn happy. But don't tell me you don't, just because you don't want  me to think that you do. I promise I will never assume.