Last year, Gerald left.
Two months ago, Ethel left.
Tomorrow, May is going to leave.
And two months later, J is going to leave.
Why the fuck is everyone leaving?! Why are they all people that I care so much about? Stop leaving me to be by myself. I hate it so much, and I hate it more that I cannot do anything about it.
I keep trying to put a cork on my emotions, to not let myself feel. And sometimes it works, because even though I know it's there, I don't feel the extent of it. I feel a quarter of sadness, a fraction of despair. But I cannot keep doing this right? That's bottling up, and one day I'll just explode.
I'm too distraught to function. I'm sorry for not answering my formspring properly. I feel like if I tend to them now, I'll just end up snapping at people, so I'll go on a formspring hiatus for now.
Can my friends please date/visit me for the next few days/weeks? I really really need some fun and laughter in my life so I don't screw my brain over by thinking too much )':
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