Today is a big fat joke on me.

 
(via meheartchanel)

School was very good for me today because I had a sexy-till-you-melt voice and a 4 hour long chat with @evantangs. Plus I wore jeans to school for the very first virgin time.

Then I reached home and HC comes to tell me that the girl who passed away is actually someone I knew from a very long time ago. Cannot believe I didn't pay enough attention to that news article to recognize her. I didn't know how to react. Really. And I still don't.

I kept crying you know, because so many of my friends are hurting so much that their grief got to me. Then I went back to this fb page that was created for M, saw the message left by F and cried again. In that moment, I truly believed in undying love.

I cannot understand how a day can start so well, and end so dramatically bad. I need a break. I need a kit kat. I really just hope you guys can stop hurting so much inside. I wish your heart could get over the pain at this very second. I want to see all your smiles again ok? It's never too late to say, I love all of you (':

"When Angels Cry" by Janis Ian

IS THE FUCKING SADDEST SONG EVER.

But you HAVE to listen to it because it's too beautiful.