More than words.

A friend (let’s call him DH) broke up with his girlfriend over me. It’s not what you think. Apparently, when he hung out with her friends, they realized we were from the same secondary school and started questioning him about me; about how most of my friends are boys, how I keep changing boyfriends, and how my current boyfriend is a million times better than me. DH defended me and when it got out of hand, he scolded them. That pissed his girlfriend off because she didn’t see why he should be so protective over me. They fought and he ended the relationship.

When I asked him about the break up, his only explanation was,

“My loyalty is with you.”


I literally burst into tears when he said that. I felt so lucky to have a friend like DH. This is a guy whom I haven’t spoken to in 3 years, ever since we left the school. The most we did in secondary school was to play basketball together, have a few lunches after class, and chat online. We weren’t close at all. And in contrast to him, I have people in my life, claiming to be my best friends but would ditch me for a ‘cooler’ (quotation because THEY-ARE-NOT-COOL) bunch of people, would only ring me up when their plans are abruptly cancelled, and would rant to me about how horrible some people are, only to abandon me for them time and time again.

While I am grateful for DH’s loyalty and trust, I feel really tired of having to catch up with people who couldn't care less. It seems like I am constantly trying to compete with the other people around them, and I want to be done with that. No more calling to catch up, no more working around my schedule to date them out, no more feeling like I’m just a spare tyre.

P/s: How crazy can people get nowadays to be bitching about somebody they don’t know? I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHO THOSE GIRLS ARE. NEVER KNEW THEM, NEVER SPOKEN TO THEM, NEVER LAID EYES ON THEM. They just read my blog + formspring and decide I am not worthy of the things and people in my life. Wow.