I spontaneously agreed to go on a trip to JB tomorrow and now I probably can't go because of my stinking fever. Sucks to be me. And I can't sleeeeeeeep! )':
How I wish Evan Tang was awake so that he can listen to me bitch about that fug M-EB shemale. I just got this really lousy news and I wish I could share it here, but EYES ARE WATCHING. Urgh. MAGNUM BOY!!! DID YOU SEE MY TEXT?!
I suddenly remember Evan telling me two days ago, "I don't think you're over him yet." Hellz yeah I'm not, and I don't know what to do about it. I feel like my love life is tied in with Evan's. When his suck, mine suck. When he is going gaga over a new fling, we are like laughing idiots together. What is up with that?!
Anyway, I think I'm gonna let go now. I've had 2 years of sweet sweet love + another year worth of mind-over-heart struggles. I really don't want to spend the next 2 or 4 or 10 years fighting for him, and then fighting to forget him. It's only leading me straight to heartbreak hotel. Tonight's a wake-up call, telling me to give it up and move on. If he doesn't want me, he doesn't want me. It really couldn't have come at a worse time though, because I have been plucking my courage for the past week. I never even got to tell him how I felt before he dropped that bomb on me... Life's all about tricks and mindgames *shrugs
P/s: Do you think I should write him a letter? Or is it better to leave it be?
(loooooooove how my unkempt hair sticks out here, haha)
On a completely random note, I had Venezia's Yogurt for lunch today. I think it's partly why I'm feeling so sick right now.
[EDIT]: EVAN WAS OUT CLUBBING, NOT SLEEPING?! Idiot. Haha.
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